Loving Yourself No Matter Your Size
So... it's been a while since I've written on the blog and if you follow me on Instagram or Youtube you pretty much know why. I started the #RizosontheRoad tour back in April and ever since then I've been super focused on all aspects of the tour from planning, to producing, to everything in between. It's been a lot of work, but I would be lying if I said it hasn't been fun. We only have one more city left to wrap up the tour and although I'm sad it's coming to an end I'm excited to have more time on my hands to produce content and upload it on the regular like this post I'm sharing today!
This post is super special because its definitely a vulnerable one, BUT it feels so good to share these pictures and words with you all because I feel so, so BEAUTIFUL in this very moment.
These past two years have been hard. I gained weight and I didn't even realize how the pounds crept up on me over time. My life went from being very active at my 9-5 to not leaving my house for days as I sat in front of my laptop hustling the day away at my desk. As an entrepreneur, I've been working from home for the last two years which meant I would spent most of my days glued to my laptop with little to no meals in between and when I finally got up to eat it wasn't always the healthiest choice because I was tired and just needed food in my system.
I realized just how much weight I put on when I started the tour and it made me feel some type of way especially since a lot of what I do involves photos and video. I felt like shit about it for a few weeks and then I realize that I could not continue to treat my body this way and that it deserved more time and attention than what I had currently been giving it.
It hasn't been easy but little by little I've been carving out time to meal prep healthy meals. When I'm home working like a mad woman I remind myself to eat at least 3 meals a day and I'm challenging myself to make it to the gym at least 3x a week. I'm doing this not because I want to be "skinny" or look cute on Instagram, but because my body deserves to be treated with love and respect so that I can be the best ME I can be.
Funny thing is even with these extra pounds on me, I've never felt more beautiful. I guess its because I've never loved myself as much as I love myself in this very moment and I honestly don't care what anyone has to say.
These past few months have taught me that even if you're in the process of trying to change your body, you need to be content with what it is, right here, right now. Because if you can't be happy with yourself now, you won't be happy with yourself ever.
"I hope one day your human body is not a jail cell, instead it's a sunny 2pm garden with daises thriving because of self love."
Since my weight gain I've gone up a bra cup and the only bra that has been holding me down the last few months has been the Mesh Balconette Bra from Torrid. I was blown away by how sexy, light, and comfortable this full coverage bra is. Obsessed ain't even the word. This is literally my favorite bra ever. I'm a 36DDD now and the struggle is so real to find a good bra that doesn't cost a trillion dollars, but Torrid has been a life saver!
When they sent over this cute Mesh and Fancy Lace set I was all like "Yasssss", but the thought of taking pictures and actually posting them made me a little anxious because hmmmm lets see... I don't normally post pictures in my underwear on the internets. But I did it anyway because I know that someone needed this post. Someone needed to read this. Someone needed to feel that they are not the only ones out here trying to love their bodies a little harder. Someone needed to hear that their body is beautiful right now, right now and that it deserves to be loved no matter the size.
"In a society that profits from self-doubt, loving yourself is a rebellious act."
I had no intentions of writing this post. I was only going to share these pictures on Instagram because my time is very limited this week as I get ready for our NYC event, but when Denisse sent over these images I couldn't help but stop what I was doing and run over here to write my little heart out.
The sight of these photos made me emotional. The girl that I see here is SOOOO beautiful. That girl has been through hell and back and somehow still made out alive with a smile on her face and pure joy in her heart. That girl is bright, tenacious, loving, driven and witty and that girl is ME.
This post is not sponsored but Torrid is having a Sexy Sale on all of their intimates and I really think you should check it out. All bras are 40% when you buy 3 or more, 30% off when you buy 2, and 25% when you buy one. Panties are 5 for $35 and all lingerie and sleepwear is 30% off. I really wish this sale was going on last month when I decided to spend all my coins over at Victoria's Secret. BRB going to look at the return policy - HA!
Hope you enjoyed this post. I promise I'll be back with regular content as soon as I wrap up the tour. Thanks for reading babes!
Photos by: @thugnanny_